A Former Shen Yun Musician Takes You Inside Her Nightmare Experience
A Note From The Editor: A previous version of this article contained inaccurate facts regarding the history of Falun Gong. To highlight transparency, this piece has been edited to only reflect the lived experience of the author, the views and opinions here do not necessarily reflect the views of CitySignal.
On March 10, 2022, the Shen Yun Performing Arts ensemble will start its first-week performance at 7 PM. Running until March 20 at the David H. Koch Theater in New York City, Shen Yun is coming to town once more to delight its audiences. The tickets range from $162-210. The performance is truly a spectacle with beautiful costumes and gliding dancers.
Insider musician’s story
When I first arrived for my audition, I was in awe of the beauty of the 427-acre compound in Cudlebackville/Deerpark, New York (about two hours from New York City). However, as much as I admired the beauty of the poor, caged peacocks inside the park, I could not help feeling alarmed by a lack of connection to the outside world. Even though I was there with an invitation, the armed guards at the gate waited until someone arrived to pick me up. So I had to leave my car by the gate and wait for my host. As we drove about a mile down the path, I marveled at the magnificent reproductions of Asian temples, a lake, the main concert halls, and residences. Inside the compound, you can find everything/everyone necessary for survival: lawyers, accountants, chefs, tailors, musical instrument repair, store, practice rooms, meditation rooms, concert hall, masons/builders, mailroom, movie theater, parking, and armed guards. At first, I was impressed, as I loved meditating, so this seemed like pure heaven and a beautiful place to be. Furthermore, my salary was in the mid-40s, which I considered a passable stepping-stone because I was still finishing my degree.
Rules and Regulations (spoken and unspoken)
About a month into my residence, heaven started turning to hell.
After familiarizing myself with the basic Falun Gong concepts, I could not believe how far away those were from truth, benevolence, or forbearance (alleged principles of Falun Gong). One would expect an organization that stands up for human rights not to discriminate. Both the book (and in practice), the spiritual movement is strongly prejudiced.
- anti-gay/lesbian (Li’s manual calls homosexuality a “depraved thing” on page 2)
- racist (the manager informed me that his skin got proportionally lighter the more he meditated, and there was not a single African-American person on-site despite hundreds of musicians),
- and judgemental.
Cult-like elements designed to control members’ lives were prominent throughout the practice.
- Members were segregated by art disciplines to prevent co-mingling.
- Visiting or inviting families into the workplace was discouraged.
- The organization (unofficially) prompted members to marry and socialize exclusively within the movement (leaving town to visit significant others is frowned upon).
- Members were encouraged to live in dwellings provided by other members or in the close vicinity of the work compound (renting a private apartment and independent living was discouraged).
- Members were highly discouraged from outside entertainment, dining, and drinking,
- Pictures inside the compound are not allowed.
- Medical assistance outside of meditation was discouraged.
- Personal documents such as passports were initially confiscated for visa purposes and kept with the company.
- In addition, members must socialize within their sex (eating in the cafeteria is segregated by males/females, and social interaction is minimal).
- Members felt pressure to meditate in groups, so that time spent meditating is supervised.
- Communal meditation times must be preserved.
- Greeting Li Hongzhi or his wife must be done with reverence and bowing (followers must call him “Master”).
- The only reading encouraged is Lee Hongzhi’s book which contains spiritual, moral, and prescriptive dogma.
- A prominent belief that “the master” knows your darkest thoughts and actions.
Even artistic creativity and freedom seemed absent as pieces composed by Lee Hongzhi (a former trumpet player with a short-lived career at a forest police unit in Jilin Province, China) took center stage. Those were said to contain inherent spiritually enlightening characteristics. However, many professionally trained musicians will agree that those are rather simplistic and repetitive musical structures. The entertainment value of Shen Yun’s performances is mainly in the visual, drama, costumes, and dancing.
Not a religion (spiritual method/discipline)
The practitioners are adamant in refusing to proclaim Falun Gong as a religion. The meditation, spiritual practices, and reading the book are said to
- promote one’s road onto enlightenment,
- decrease attachment to earthly desires,
- increase peace,
- improve health/cure diseases (in fact, there are claims of Falun Gong members being persecuted/killed to confiscate their healthy organs),
- improve youth and overall appearance, and
- lighten the skin tone.
My increasingly contentious relationship with the manager (exacerbated by me constantly leaving the compound, joining an outside gym, chatting with males and females alike, and having a boyfriend outside of Falun Gong) culminated around the time of my introduction to Li Hongzhi. He seemed aloof and stood there smiling, much like the pope in public celebrations (the pope generally looks more friendly). Since I was the only one who did not bow before him, I immediately stuck out due to my lack of reverence. Around that time, I started skipping all the extracurricular/fun activities such as movie nights and the like. Instead, after work, I would join fellow musicians in a restaurant and have dinner with a couple of glasses of wine. Following one of our excursions, a friend alerted me to spying/monitoring as she was given a speech about drinking and going out. My uneasiness increased since I started seeing cars following me whenever I would leave the compound.
Finally, one Friday, after the rehearsals were over, I packed a bag to visit my boyfriend. About 20 minutes into my drive, I got a phone call from my manager asking where I was. Imagine my alarm and shock to think someone was keeping tabs on me. After a short conversation explaining my misfit as a valuable community member, the manager informed me that I would be fired. As I pulled out of the parking lot where I stopped to take the call, I was vaguely aware of a car behind me. Perhaps it was paranoia, but regardless, I drove straight home, packed up my most important things, grabbed my cat, and informed the landlord that I would be back for my things later on in the week. As I was packing up, my landlord told me that she was sorry to see me leave and that I should be careful because there were strange cars passing back-and-forth and stopping on our small (dead-end) street.
As I drove away, I received another phone call from the manager asking me where I was going. I informed the manager that I was leaving since I was no longer in their employ and my activities should not concern them. About a week later, I came back with my boyfriend to grab the rest of my things. I had made arrangements to retrieve my passport from a fellow musician (to avoid going inside the compound again). My friend was an earnest believer of Falun Gong and informed me that since my previous job was not a great fit, perhaps I would be interested in teaching instead. She told me that the organization had room in their schools with a higher salary, and then maybe eventually, I would want to start playing again. I could not even bring myself to consider the option.
Falun Gong: Cult or a helpful institution?
While I was there, I met international musicians sponsored for a visa that worked for a mere fraction of what I made. Most of them lived in one-room dwellings that they rented from fellow Falun Gong practitioners. Many members donated their services, worked for free (simply for food and lodging), and many even allocated funds in their wills. As a result, Li Hongzhi’s residence is nothing short of luxurious and constantly expanding with new construction. He has amassed land in multiple locations, and this nonprofit that seeks to raise awareness of the Chinese government’s atrocities through art has become quite a lucrative venture.
Li Hongzhi denies to acknowledge Falun Gong as a cult. “Falun Gong does not have temples, churches, baptism, all kinds of religious formalities,” he says. “People will go out to do the exercises every morning for half an hour or one hour and go back to work. That’s why I say it is not a cult.” Unfortunately, that is an incomplete truth. I witnessed meditation requirements multiple times daily, beautiful temples, seclusion from family/friends, and behavioral requirements with tremendous peer pressure to belong (and keep your job). In addition, widespread accusations of withheld medical care, endangerment, and death are linked to the Falun Gong practice. While Li Hongzhi denies such allegations, I witnessed his staff discouraging employees from obtaining (work-sponsored) medical insurance as evidence of a lack of faith in the healing powers of Falun Gong.
Perhaps I have had an anti-authority streak since I was a child and am simply overly sensitive. On the other hand, my experience is hardly unique since many have plotted to leave for months/years. Falun Gong alarmingly finds its place on international cult awareness sites. After all, many members praise “Master Li,” displaying his images on mini alters at home and the compound. So perhaps the Falun Gong compound is a cult or an institution that only serves the devoted. Or perhaps, I was simply unenlightened and lacked humility. As an arts patron, it’s up to you whom you will support. Judge for yourself.